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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Today I woke up motivated. This does not happen too often, so I decided to take advantage of it. I started cleaning off my floor (I have a habit where I just take clothes off and just leave them there. Sounds logical right? No...it piles up..damn logic..) It's mostly pants so I fold them up and put them in my handy dandy 'pants drawer'. See, what also helps is that after my ma brings my clothes up to put them in there. If she forgets I have a pants drawer, leave them for me to bring up. But don't put my clean pants on the floor and then complain about the mess of pants on my floor...I am organized with what I take off. If its on the floor, I've already worn them once or twice. Thats how I know whats is becoming dirty. I have a plan...a messy plan but one that works!
After I pick up, I notice clutters. I usually dont mind...but now I wanna make them neater clutters...so I attempt that. I look at my walls, there are some oldies pictures up that I dont like. I tear them down. With this, I start taking things off my walls I was too afraid to before...for fear Id have nothing to fill the hole or no time to finish my work. I am going to remodel my room. Tis small, but I will rearrange and make big...Big I tell you..BIG! I will defeat the small space...I WILL! Ate some din din. I realized...I dont really have an appetite anymore. It kinda scares me. This happened to me before but it was through some tough times. Atleast there was some sort of reason then. Now its just like...how come I'm not hungry? I should be eating right now...its a designated meal time...why am I not eating? And those thoughts have been going through my mind often...its freakin me out cuz last time...I dunno. It's prolly nothing. Meh, just being a little worry wart. My mom got some fruit, I like fruit. My dad asked if I wanted to go on a bikeride with him. Kinda surprised me...family time? What's this? So we rode our bikes around Lake Linden. There was this neat hill...and I just rode as fast as I could and just let go...of my handlebars, worries, thoughts, everything...I just was detached from the world all together for those few moments. It was like that one movie with Meg Ryan where she does that except she dies and its really sad...but this was just freedom. I was flying... Got home...went back to my room. I got this really bad headache because I started thinking... I got really hot so I stopped cleaning and just layed for a while. And I just hurt all over my head and closing my eyes was a job. So I got up and wrote. I am kinda zombie ish.. Jenny at 10:37 PM
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