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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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I couldnt take it anymore. I just got up from my chair, went to the kitchen and looked at the coffee maker. I stared at it very long and hard contemplating how much coffee I could take without it being too noticable (remember, I need some supervision and Im home alone right now so yea it could get captain insano with all the possiblities). So yea, I looked at the pot (and pondered whether or not to smoke it...what? haha pot lols) Off track...if one were to slip a pot plant into a leaf pile and burn it, could they get the radius around their house....that whole area of their neighborhood high? Do you think the neighbors would notice their sudden feeling of flying and euphoria? Would they even mind? Would it even be a crime for the neighbors to accidently get high from that incident? What if one of them was already high to begin with and then went outside for air and got more high...then the cops found him...would he get away with it because of the whole 'neighborhood gets high' accident? Not that ive got any ideas or anything...what? Sidetrack-age...
Anyway, so I compulsively grabbed a measuring cup...poured some coffee in it...and drank it straight. Black coffee...BAM! Went straight to the veins. I just couldnt take it anymore. I missed caffine. Not necessarily caffine but the thoughts derived from caffine. I've been looking at my past blogs at how happy i've been getting progressively. Being single does not make me alone, it just makes me single....plain and simple. And I know for a fact I can be completely and udderly happy that way, its just always nice to have someone. I just wanna cuddle and have someone to think fondly about while they do the same naturally... But the lonely mood changes because as I write this, I am talking to one of my best friend's Hoadley. He is back from CT this summer...we need to catch up on things. I really liked him freshman year...then he moved and I was crushed. So like these little visits and such are a million times more meaningful than usual. Its like a reunion everytime I see him and its just so nice to see him. My friends always said he was like my soulmate but i never would believe it cuz if we were soulmates...we'd most likly be going out or something. It was nice to think about going out with him being as we had so much in common and just enjoy each others company...I try not to think into it much being as he lives so far away. And like...he just totally changed my mood. It was like content to super happy...he just has a way with making me feel really special. He just makes me feel really good inside...and i havent felt like that for a while...I mean ive had my fair amount of crushes but they all seemed to crash and burn. The recent quite terribly actually. Now it's just like a breath of fresh air...because it's old and new at the same time. It's just all up in the air...and I kinda like it like that...anything could happen. And even if nothing does...I still have so much reason to be happy because like...he's one of my best friends and we have kept in touch all year. We plan to get together as soon as I get back. It's nice to think about because I'll be hangin with my boys again...probably reinacting some jackass stunts and laughing our asses off...and it will be fresh. I just love living. Thought/feeling of the moment: Recieving one of those hugs where neither of you want to let go but you know you have to sometime...but you expect the other to notion to let go and they never do. So you just hold each other until you really have to part and even then, as you begin to let go, they squeeze harder...making it a million times tougher to just walk away after... Those are the nicest hugs. They are the ones that seems to last even when you do finally let go, because I still feel it. Jenny at 3:30 PM
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