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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Bah..Im shivvering it's flippin cold. Maybe im excited. Im gonna see people I havent seen in a long time...and the amazing part is, they still wanna see me. So easily I think I'm forgotten, but it's just in my nature. I'm naturally insecure like that. But at the same time, fairly confident with an average self-esteem...yes...I clash. But whatcha gonna do?
So I am making my friend's gift. And I've been working on it for a while...getting inspirations as I go...and Im really excited. I cant talk about it too much, they have my site. But I will say...im excited. I went outside this evening. It was just the evening I remember back when he and I used to talk...mostly me, but he never interrupted. For being a man that seemed to have little patience, he would always listen to me babble about stuff. And that one night we were on my deck, looking at the stars as he smoked his cigar...we talked just about stuff. And I remember thinking, "Wow...for just talking about stuff, this is one of the best conversations i've ever had. I really like this. I hope these times never go away." And of course...as most good things do, those times went away without my consent (as if anyone has any over anything in life...especially me...which if you think about it for a while...makes you feel very, very small and helpless. Damn) He went away. And it makes me sad...because I miss those conversations about stuff. I miss him and the fact he was the only one who understood me and gave me a chance and accepted me for who I am ever since i was born. That's special. I miss all that. So I sat under the stars thinkin about all this. And I asked him up there...as if he were just hiding in that infinite, sparkled darkness...I asked him to give me a sign that he says hello and is listening to me babble on like old times. And seriously...I swear I saw 4 consecutive shooting stars. I wouldnt lie about something like that and I know if I were you, I'd prolly be like "Bullshit dude...you're just spacin out again." And maybe. Things do get contorted to where you see what you want to see...but I saw 4 shooting stars..right after another. And I saw 4 more as the night went on but i dunno...it seemed to good to be true. But please dont make fun of me or say im seein things...if you dont believe me...then let me just go on thinking this anyway. Because when you really miss someone, things like this mean a whole lot. And it means a whole lot to me... I really dont like street lights...or any other unecessary lights for that matter. I havent thought too much into these urges before but tonight I just really wanted/want to be held. And with all the love I hold inside me, I could almost feel loving arms around me. Hmmm...I like that. I like it a lot. Inspiration. Ding! I've been very productive these past few days. I'm drawing again, writing, arts and crafts, photography, wit and humor, im pulling together slowly...I think. The seams are slowly pulling together...and maybe, just maybe...all my stuffings will keep inside. Not that my guts are hanging all out cuz that would be pretty damn disgusting...but I do tend to wear my heart on my sleeves...hearty har har...haha Hmm...Im thinking...Hummm I get to meet Meat tomorrow. Haha...meet Meat! Say it fast and thoughts of the roadrunner pop into my head. Silly roadrunner =) Speaking of thinking, the inquiry came to my mind: HAve I ever been intimidated by the ape? No, seriously lols...the fact that some know sign language and I don't yet. I would hate to go to a zoo and have an ape sign at me...and not know how the f*ck to respond...because it's a damn ape...and I would feel really dumb. Perhaps flick it off and run away...sobbing internally...outsmarted by the ape... Hey...I am sure many folk out there had their self-esteem's lowered by apes... I only know how to sign my name in sign language. And they will be speaking in full (and possibly highly intelligent sentences)...telling me the answers to all my life's ponderings...and all I have to say is "J-E-N-N-Y" and point to myself as they sign to each other "dumbass" Argh...now I wanna learn sign language...DAMN DIRTY APES! Then I can converse with deaf people...maybe even read braille. Tomorrow's gonna be a really good day. I can feel it. Possibly because technically tomorrow is already today. And I can still feel it. Good day, mate, good day. Love you all. Head to toe, heart and soul. Jenny at 12:11 AM
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