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Tuesday, August 24, 2004

So today was alright. It had a really bumming moment...but then other ones that made up for it by millions.

I went to bed a little later last night...forgetting it takes me a while to fall asleep. See, I have to have a designated time to go to be when possible, so that I can have a decent amount of time to lay there and review my day...think... worry...whatever...then fall asleep at a decent hour. Last night I went to bed at 11pm...and ended up finally falling asleep much later.

Which brings me to waking up...which was a bitch. When the first thing you do in the morning is curse your alarm clock to hell for yelling at you...thats never really good. I took an extra long shower, which I like...cuz I like showers. Gives me less time, but then relaxes me. So instead of stressing about being late, Im taking my time...laid back and relieved. Mmmm...showers.

Got to school...really was not in the mood for it. I wasnt really up for talking or goofing off...I was just there. I was so sleepy. Earth Science I kept falling asleep. I notice that I tilt back a forth when I doze off. Like my whole body...whereas last year, it was just my neck. I am prolly gonna fall out of my seat sometime this year. It was so embarressing tho because my body would just loosen up when I would tilt someway in my seat...and I would nearly fall over sideways. It's like I turned narcoleptic or something. Brenden told me later how he was watchin me doze off every so often in the class period and how my eyes would roll back. I was like Ewww prolly look possessed lols.

2nd hour wasnt much better...I had to learn lol. Damn. Haha no I like learning. I just hate being tired. So I wrote notes and did homework. It was okay. Just gotta remember to like sleep and stuff. Then I can be motivated.

3rd...back to narcolepsy. Chyea, this time in stead of leaning a certain way till I nearly fall over...I was like swirling in my desk. I was just rocking all around...hoping to keep myself moving and therefore awake but no...I rocked myself to slumber. Thompson said I need some sleep lol. Chyea...duh. And the class neads testosterone.

4th, O'Conner, the kind soul...she let me get some juice and drink it to get some kinda sugar in me. Cuz I was so ready to just roll in a ball and sleep. Maybe spoon and unwanting neighbor lol. I FOUND MY LOCK!! Sweet ass!! I was just about to buy a new one with my own money and then it fell outta my gym bag!! I was so happy! Now I dont have to remember a new com!

5th is when the Jenny spirit came back. I found energy and was once again my hyper self =D Oh yea and I found a nut on the ground then my pal found a screw...soo many inuendos...so much amusement. All hour...I played with the nut and the screw...Im really pathetic but easily amused. Meg asked me to save her a seat and I did, I had my bag on the desk right next to me to my left...then this kid took my bag off and sat down. And I was like "Im sorry...excuse me, but this is Meg McGrath's seat. And he was like "Hmm..I dont see her anywhere. It looks like mine." and I was so mad because I was like "Seriously, could you please move a seat over?" and he just ignored me. And I felt really bad cuz now it doesnt seem like I kept my promise and I did and I really fought back but he didnt want to move =(

Dave said outloud how I cried at Big Fish and I was embarressed cuz I told him not to tell anybody. It just related to my life so much. The dad in that movie (the one with all the stories), he is JUST like my grampa. And the movie really hit home to me I mean...I can watch it...and remember my grampa. That's how similar it is. And when I saw it with Dave...it was my first time seeing it and I didnt know how similar it would be to my life. My grampa died september of my freshman year of cancer, and the dad in the movie died of cancer. At the end...I just couldnt hold it in...it was just so beautiful and watching the dad in the movie was like lookin at my grampa...like a biography of some sort. And yea...I brawled my eyes out...but it was only because how close the movie was to my life. I couldnt hold it in because then I would be lying to myself...lying that I dont miss him, lying that I didnt remember, lying that I wasnt moved...so I cried. If it wasnt for my grampa, I would have never showed it. I dont cry at movies. I hold it in.

Then as Manda and I were on our way to lunch, this kid said I dropped a whole lot of money. And it looked like he was joking and sounded like it. Plus when I turned to look, nothing was on the ground and he didnt have it. He told me this girl picked it up and walked away with it. And I couldnt believe him. So I kept walking because I didnt even know who to run down for taking my money. I get to lunch and I realize that I dont have my 7 dollars. I got really upset because that is really sad. Not even minutes after I drop it, someone has to pick it up and take it. What really pisses me off is that I dont know who kept the money. And you know, later on...some person could drop their money and I would return it to them. I'll never know if I was doing a favor for the thief. It broke my heart...not even minutes after I dropped it...people are cruel. Another day without lunch. Im not pissed...Im just really hurt.

Other than that, lunch was fun. Ward is wrong. And Jenny is right. How do you think the people get obese then from getting biggie sized? How come people biggie size without a value meal? Pssht..chyea. Meg's sitting with us tomorrow..she promised. And I'll make sure to have a seat for her, even if I have to give up my own. Im gonna eat tomorrow.

7th I was sleepy. Read my "I am" poem. Not my best but pretty good for being spontaneous and stuff. We have to do speeches on Thurs and Friday. Lame.

8th, JULIA AND I ARE IN THE SAME GROUP!!! YESH!! We sit almost next to each other and wow! ROCK ON!! Jenny is happy, yes she is! The last few minutes of class, we watched soccer on TV. Paraguay was playing Iraq lols. Paraguay won..and Iraq was pissed. I made a comment about how I'd be afraid to be the opposing team of Iraq...then them losing...they could retaliate by making a soccer bomb or something.

Tennis was cancelled so Manda got to come on the bus today =) I'm sad that she wasnt able to go to tennis, but then really happy I got to hang out with her on the bus and talk. I like talking to her a lot, it makes me uber joyous.

Oh and I saw Mike Ruehle on the way to the buses. We said hey to each other and then he was like "Hey yea you called me! Whats up?" and I was like "Yea I was wonderin if ya wanted to come over and hang out cuz Hoadley was in town." I told him to call me again sometime because I'd really like to hang out with him. I still have a very soft spot for him in my heart. So it made me really happy we got to chat a little bit. Maybe we could try again someday with the dating, this time will prolly be different. I'm a little older now and though not anymore experienced than when I was with him, I am a lot more mature now and so is he. It could work now, we'll just have to see where this goes. I was happy though. He called back before, I hope he calls again now.

Today was sleepy. All in all, good. It got better as the day ended...though that sounds typical, I mean it. 5th hour and on the day was better.

Meg is said she would visit today so I hope she does so. Depending on if she came back from driving or not, we may pick up Manda and all hang out.

I think I will get by this week. Early out tomorrow. Then I dunno...happy days. THey will be happy cuz I said so. And somethin needs to start...we need to have a party or a dance or somethin...I need to get hyped up. GET ME EXCITED FOR SCHOOL!!

The people I am lucky to spend some time with everyday make things a whole lot brighter in life though. I have friends to look forward to everyday. And then school's not so lame. Seeing you everyday makes there no reason for me to have a bad day. I heart you so.

Later kids =D

Jenny at 4:12 PM

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Tuesday, August 24, 2004 So today was alright. It had a really bumming moment...but then other ones that made up for it by millions. I went to bed a little later last night...forgetting it takes me a while to fall asleep. See, I have to have a designated time to go to be when possible, so that I can have a decent amount of time to lay there and review my day...think... worry...whatever...then fall asleep at a decent hour. Last night I went to bed at 11pm...and ended up finally falling asleep much later. Which brings me to waking up...which was a bitch. When the first thing you do in the morning is curse your alarm clock to hell for yelling at you...thats never really good. I took an extra long shower, which I like...cuz I like showers. Gives me less time, but then relaxes me. So instead of stressing about being late, Im taking my time...laid back and relieved. Mmmm...showers. Got to school...really was not in the mood for it. I wasnt really up for talking or goofing off...I was just there. I was so sleepy. Earth Science I kept falling asleep. I notice that I tilt back a forth when I doze off. Like my whole body...whereas last year, it was just my neck. I am prolly gonna fall out of my seat sometime this year. It was so embarressing tho because my body would just loosen up when I would tilt someway in my seat...and I would nearly fall over sideways. It's like I turned narcoleptic or something. Brenden told me later how he was watchin me doze off every so often in the class period and how my eyes would roll back. I was like Ewww prolly look possessed lols. 2nd hour wasnt much better...I had to learn lol. Damn. Haha no I like learning. I just hate being tired. So I wrote notes and did homework. It was okay. Just gotta remember to like sleep and stuff. Then I can be motivated. 3rd...back to narcolepsy. Chyea, this time in stead of leaning a certain way till I nearly fall over...I was like swirling in my desk. I was just rocking all around...hoping to keep myself moving and therefore awake but no...I rocked myself to slumber. Thompson said I need some sleep lol. Chyea...duh. And the class neads testosterone. 4th, O'Conner, the kind soul...she let me get some juice and drink it to get some kinda sugar in me. Cuz I was so ready to just roll in a ball and sleep. Maybe spoon and unwanting neighbor lol. I FOUND MY LOCK!! Sweet ass!! I was just about to buy a new one with my own money and then it fell outta my gym bag!! I was so happy! Now I dont have to remember a new com! 5th is when the Jenny spirit came back. I found energy and was once again my hyper self =D Oh yea and I found a nut on the ground then my pal found a screw...soo many inuendos...so much amusement. All hour...I played with the nut and the screw...Im really pathetic but easily amused. Meg asked me to save her a seat and I did, I had my bag on the desk right next to me to my left...then this kid took my bag off and sat down. And I was like "Im sorry...excuse me, but this is Meg McGrath's seat. And he was like "Hmm..I dont see her anywhere. It looks like mine." and I was so mad because I was like "Seriously, could you please move a seat over?" and he just ignored me. And I felt really bad cuz now it doesnt seem like I kept my promise and I did and I really fought back but he didnt want to move =( Dave said outloud how I cried at Big Fish and I was embarressed cuz I told him not to tell anybody. It just related to my life so much. The dad in that movie (the one with all the stories), he is JUST like my grampa. And the movie really hit home to me I mean...I can watch it...and remember my grampa. That's how similar it is. And when I saw it with Dave...it was my first time seeing it and I didnt know how similar it would be to my life. My grampa died september of my freshman year of cancer, and the dad in the movie died of cancer. At the end...I just couldnt hold it in...it was just so beautiful and watching the dad in the movie was like lookin at my grampa...like a biography of some sort. And yea...I brawled my eyes out...but it was only because how close the movie was to my life. I couldnt hold it in because then I would be lying to myself...lying that I dont miss him, lying that I didnt remember, lying that I wasnt moved...so I cried. If it wasnt for my grampa, I would have never showed it. I dont cry at movies. I hold it in. Then as Manda and I were on our way to lunch, this kid said I dropped a whole lot of money. And it looked like he was joking and sounded like it. Plus when I turned to look, nothing was on the ground and he didnt have it. He told me this girl picked it up and walked away with it. And I couldnt believe him. So I kept walking because I didnt even know who to run down for taking my money. I get to lunch and I realize that I dont have my 7 dollars. I got really upset because that is really sad. Not even minutes after I drop it, someone has to pick it up and take it. What really pisses me off is that I dont know who kept the money. And you know, later on...some person could drop their money and I would return it to them. I'll never know if I was doing a favor for the thief. It broke my heart...not even minutes after I dropped it...people are cruel. Another day without lunch. Im not pissed...Im just really hurt. Other than that, lunch was fun. Ward is wrong. And Jenny is right. How do you think the people get obese then from getting biggie sized? How come people biggie size without a value meal? Pssht..chyea. Meg's sitting with us tomorrow..she promised. And I'll make sure to have a seat for her, even if I have to give up my own. Im gonna eat tomorrow. 7th I was sleepy. Read my "I am" poem. Not my best but pretty good for being spontaneous and stuff. We have to do speeches on Thurs and Friday. Lame. 8th, JULIA AND I ARE IN THE SAME GROUP!!! YESH!! We sit almost next to each other and wow! ROCK ON!! Jenny is happy, yes she is! The last few minutes of class, we watched soccer on TV. Paraguay was playing Iraq lols. Paraguay won..and Iraq was pissed. I made a comment about how I'd be afraid to be the opposing team of Iraq...then them losing...they could retaliate by making a soccer bomb or something. Tennis was cancelled so Manda got to come on the bus today =) I'm sad that she wasnt able to go to tennis, but then really happy I got to hang out with her on the bus and talk. I like talking to her a lot, it makes me uber joyous. Oh and I saw Mike Ruehle on the way to the buses. We said hey to each other and then he was like "Hey yea you called me! Whats up?" and I was like "Yea I was wonderin if ya wanted to come over and hang out cuz Hoadley was in town." I told him to call me again sometime because I'd really like to hang out with him. I still have a very soft spot for him in my heart. So it made me really happy we got to chat a little bit. Maybe we could try again someday with the dating, this time will prolly be different. I'm a little older now and though not anymore experienced than when I was with him, I am a lot more mature now and so is he. It could work now, we'll just have to see where this goes. I was happy though. He called back before, I hope he calls again now. Today was sleepy. All in all, good. It got better as the day ended...though that sounds typical, I mean it. 5th hour and on the day was better. Meg is said she would visit today so I hope she does so. Depending on if she came back from driving or not, we may pick up Manda and all hang out. I think I will get by this week. Early out tomorrow. Then I dunno...happy days. THey will be happy cuz I said so. And somethin needs to start...we need to have a party or a dance or somethin...I need to get hyped up. GET ME EXCITED FOR SCHOOL!! The people I am lucky to spend some time with everyday make things a whole lot brighter in life though. I have friends to look forward to everyday. And then school's not so lame. Seeing you everyday makes there no reason for me to have a bad day. I heart you so. Later kids =D Jenny at 4:12 PM Comments: Post a Comment
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