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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Im so distracted. I spent all day fixing and re-typing all my blogs and you think it would be easy. You think it would be easy to get these words out but my mind is so clouded. It's clouded with him. And I keep trying to move on and think past all these helpless thoughts and then I see one more reason I love him. There is always one more reason.
And I read his away message and he's just this goofy boy who doesnt even understand himself. He cant even explain how he feels and when he does slip something out of feelings he has, they are more meaningful than ever. He flipping guzzled a whole Mountain Dew for no reason. And he wasnt even with his friends. He's such a dork but thats what I love about him. He doesnt always need a reason to do something. And when I think of him, I think about those silly stupid things I've done. Like jumping off Jessie's car and thinking I could land in mid-run. We both live a spontaneous life. I was on the phone with him the other night, and I said he should move back. And he told me to yell at him mom cuz she wont let him. She said it would confuse his highschool career. And we always have these witty jokes to make fun of each other and I had a really good one but I was afraid if I said it, he would not wanna move back lols. So I told him how I had a good comment but I didnt wanna say it and he kept telling me to say it. And I was getting him so flusterated and it was making me laugh so hard because I would always have a good comeback and when he didnt know what to say he'd just huff and puff and push buttons on the phone lols. And then he finally got me to say it and I almost forgot it but then I remembered. It was "Well, I think it's best you stay in Connecticut anyway...that seems to be the only state you can get girls in..." and he started bust out laughing. He said it wasnt mean, it was funny. It felt good to make him laugh. And he had a stomach ache from chugging the Dew and I kept making him laugh. He makes me so happy because we could just goof off together. Like when we play the hang up game...we hang up on each other and try and races who calls back first. But this time his phone wouldnt let him hang up and I was the only one who could hang up. So I always won. And the button pushing game...we would both push a button to see who could stand it for the longest and I won that too lols. But he won my heart. I wish I could win it back. I love him so, but it doesnt seem to be doing me any good...I'm still where I've always been, just a friend, best friend. Jenny at 6:51 PM
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