Her Smiling Eyes

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

So today was fun. Oh yes, it was. I only mean that in a 15% sarcastic way.

For starters, didn't get to bed till 2am. Doesn't matter, it was worthwhile.
I woke up at 5:30 and took a show. Longest flippin shower of my life.
Still didn't wake up.
Went to 'lay on my bed to relax' and meant to just literally do so...fell into a deep slumber.
I didn't wake up till 6:45. I was still in my robe and so not ready to start my day rushing or even start it at all.
I dressed in about 3 minutes, ran out and had my breakfast, brushed my teeth, and ran like hell outside for the bus...wet hair and everything.
WEt hair would not have been all that bad if John Deere didnt decide today was a fine day to be fucking late.
Froze my ass of and was pretty much begging for phenomia after recovering a cold.
Hot damn.
That's not even it yet.
I get to school and buy a cappichino, hoping that caffine would do me some wonders today.
It was just the beginning.
I was seriously so tired, I wanted to cry. It almost seemed like I was about to, but I couldnt even tell if my eyes were just watering from dryness or exaustion.
I had a test first hour in Earth Science.
I had to fill in those damn silly boxes.
65 of them.
Lucky for me, it was a very easy test. Im glad I know my shit.
Then I had to start my math homework. Got 3 tedious problems done and the blasted bell rings. Guess which class is next?
Fucking math. Reviewed all hour for our test that the majority of my class decided they wanted bumped up to thursday, though none of us can truthfully say we understand this stuff.
Great idea, assholes...now we are going to have hw on friday.
Fuck. I go out of my way to make a flippin contact sheet of Amnesty photos and I forget to give them to Vickie. Cheese and rice.
F4L, we finally played a sport for once. I was getting really into our vollyball game...but since people suck and dont participate...vollyball died and we played this game. Grrrrr
I miss sports. I really miss sports.
Annoying kids annoyed me today. If you dont fucking no your lines, swallow your pride and go on script. Seriously, if you dont know that much of your skit, save us all the trouble and just read from your script.
I just got an im from 'ExplicitSex####'
I love how I dont even have to look for porn. Porn just finds me lol.
Lunch was dandy. I threw a turkey sammich at Kelsey in hopes she could start a new trend for all to be trendy with.
"Black streaks in hair...so trendy..." -Carly
"Is it??" -Kelsey
"Hey, I got an idea. NOw put turkey sammich in your hair and be trendy" -Me
It was moreso the line, and the action that went with it to get the full effect of the joke. Cuz the turkey sammich like smacked her in the head.
And jump for joys! I had an English test today! Yay!
I totally kick that test's ass though. Almost to the point where I had fun taking it. I find that very sickening to me. I guess it's because once again, I knew my shit.
My Godzilla friend just signed on. I have only talked to him once very randomly. And someday, I will im. Who else can I talk about Godzilla and turn all nerdy with?
History I fell asleep.
Four. Count 'em FOUR other people were sleeping and very obnoxiously I must say. They might as well of had pillows conviniently on their desk. But no. My teach still singles me out for nodding off excessively in class rather than either staying awake or falling dead asleep.
For goodness sake, I was just spacing again and I would nod off every so often. Wake up all the coma-like kids dammit.

Ironically enough, after all my blasted bitching and moaning, today was a damn good day. For those who read this, I felt I had to go through all that to show the true irony of it all. You think I woulda had a shitty day but no. It all worked out.

After school, I went home with Manda and hung out before Amnesty. Her toaster killed my poptart lol. It sort of sent smoke signals for help, but ended up smouldering because it never popped. The toaster tried to eat it. I ate a pb sammich and we talked about stuff. It was very nice. I opened up a little for once. Gimme some time, I'll eventually get the hang of this. It's not that I am not myself or anything by having so many sides or layers, I just have trouble completely being myself. So many parts of personality clash and all my moods seem to want to come out and play at once. It's all just so confusing. Even more so when I can't determine if I am really happy, or just so determined to be happy at the moment that I just find a reason to make it happen. Like getting Sweedish Fish or something. One day I will be able to distinguish my moods and keep them seperate. Maybe I will finally accept these other emotions and just be sad or be mad. I know they are there, i just gotta stop denyin it.

We went to Amnesty. Manda walked into a wall that may or may not have jumped in front of her. I didnt really notice the wall either till the last second when she walked into it. I woulda sounded some sort of warning if I noticed the wall approching, but it was all so fast lol. It was funny ::ahem:: in the not funny way. f and wrote on envelopes to send the holiday cards we made to the POC. I accidently wrote in pencil =/ Ay de me. I just erased the programs off all the Uzbekistani's calculators.

What? I dont know.

I heart AMnesty. Really, the whole atmosphere of it brings joy to my world. The fact that it is all for such a good cause, it just makes everything so positive when I am there and so happy. It just brings so much joy into my life. The kids are really cool, the cause is really grand, and it's just lovely. I also get to see him. I dont get shy around this one, but I don't always know what to say to him. Hugs say more than any words that could come out of my mouth though. And I love his hugs. He is just so warm and fuzzy. I like to cuddle with him. I dont want to mess this one up. So im not gonna say anything or go out with him. He and I are more of the dating type anyhow. It's silly but I really really look forward to seeing him. And I dont mind grabbing his butt lol. I just feel very comfy around him. I like it. I like him.

And then there's Eric. Might-as-well say HIS name cuz just about everybody knows I have a silly crush on him. What can I say? Maybe it's a fascination. Maybe it's his beautiful hair...and just self. I'll shut up now before my face gets hot. Then I know i am blushing. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh growl.

Humm...snack time.

This is a lot of writing. I should stop. Chyea. So all in all, it ended up being a splendid day.

I love you.
good day. good night. good morning.

Jenny at 7:33 PM

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Wednesday, December 01, 2004 So today was fun. Oh yes, it was. I only mean that in a 15% sarcastic way. For starters, didn't get to bed till 2am. Doesn't matter, it was worthwhile. I woke up at 5:30 and took a show. Longest flippin shower of my life. Still didn't wake up. Went to 'lay on my bed to relax' and meant to just literally do so...fell into a deep slumber. I didn't wake up till 6:45. I was still in my robe and so not ready to start my day rushing or even start it at all. I dressed in about 3 minutes, ran out and had my breakfast, brushed my teeth, and ran like hell outside for the bus...wet hair and everything. WEt hair would not have been all that bad if John Deere didnt decide today was a fine day to be fucking late. Froze my ass of and was pretty much begging for phenomia after recovering a cold. Hot damn. That's not even it yet. I get to school and buy a cappichino, hoping that caffine would do me some wonders today. It was just the beginning. I was seriously so tired, I wanted to cry. It almost seemed like I was about to, but I couldnt even tell if my eyes were just watering from dryness or exaustion. I had a test first hour in Earth Science. I had to fill in those damn silly boxes. 65 of them. Lucky for me, it was a very easy test. Im glad I know my shit. Then I had to start my math homework. Got 3 tedious problems done and the blasted bell rings. Guess which class is next? Fucking math. Reviewed all hour for our test that the majority of my class decided they wanted bumped up to thursday, though none of us can truthfully say we understand this stuff. Great idea, assholes...now we are going to have hw on friday. Fuck. I go out of my way to make a flippin contact sheet of Amnesty photos and I forget to give them to Vickie. Cheese and rice. F4L, we finally played a sport for once. I was getting really into our vollyball game...but since people suck and dont participate...vollyball died and we played this game. Grrrrr I miss sports. I really miss sports. Annoying kids annoyed me today. If you dont fucking no your lines, swallow your pride and go on script. Seriously, if you dont know that much of your skit, save us all the trouble and just read from your script. I just got an im from 'ExplicitSex####' I love how I dont even have to look for porn. Porn just finds me lol. Lunch was dandy. I threw a turkey sammich at Kelsey in hopes she could start a new trend for all to be trendy with. "Black streaks in hair...so trendy..." -Carly "Is it??" -Kelsey "Hey, I got an idea. NOw put turkey sammich in your hair and be trendy" -Me It was moreso the line, and the action that went with it to get the full effect of the joke. Cuz the turkey sammich like smacked her in the head. And jump for joys! I had an English test today! Yay! I totally kick that test's ass though. Almost to the point where I had fun taking it. I find that very sickening to me. I guess it's because once again, I knew my shit. My Godzilla friend just signed on. I have only talked to him once very randomly. And someday, I will im. Who else can I talk about Godzilla and turn all nerdy with? History I fell asleep. Four. Count 'em FOUR other people were sleeping and very obnoxiously I must say. They might as well of had pillows conviniently on their desk. But no. My teach still singles me out for nodding off excessively in class rather than either staying awake or falling dead asleep. For goodness sake, I was just spacing again and I would nod off every so often. Wake up all the coma-like kids dammit. Ironically enough, after all my blasted bitching and moaning, today was a damn good day. For those who read this, I felt I had to go through all that to show the true irony of it all. You think I woulda had a shitty day but no. It all worked out. After school, I went home with Manda and hung out before Amnesty. Her toaster killed my poptart lol. It sort of sent smoke signals for help, but ended up smouldering because it never popped. The toaster tried to eat it. I ate a pb sammich and we talked about stuff. It was very nice. I opened up a little for once. Gimme some time, I'll eventually get the hang of this. It's not that I am not myself or anything by having so many sides or layers, I just have trouble completely being myself. So many parts of personality clash and all my moods seem to want to come out and play at once. It's all just so confusing. Even more so when I can't determine if I am really happy, or just so determined to be happy at the moment that I just find a reason to make it happen. Like getting Sweedish Fish or something. One day I will be able to distinguish my moods and keep them seperate. Maybe I will finally accept these other emotions and just be sad or be mad. I know they are there, i just gotta stop denyin it. We went to Amnesty. Manda walked into a wall that may or may not have jumped in front of her. I didnt really notice the wall either till the last second when she walked into it. I woulda sounded some sort of warning if I noticed the wall approching, but it was all so fast lol. It was funny ::ahem:: in the not funny way. f and wrote on envelopes to send the holiday cards we made to the POC. I accidently wrote in pencil =/ Ay de me. I just erased the programs off all the Uzbekistani's calculators. What? I dont know. I heart AMnesty. Really, the whole atmosphere of it brings joy to my world. The fact that it is all for such a good cause, it just makes everything so positive when I am there and so happy. It just brings so much joy into my life. The kids are really cool, the cause is really grand, and it's just lovely. I also get to see him. I dont get shy around this one, but I don't always know what to say to him. Hugs say more than any words that could come out of my mouth though. And I love his hugs. He is just so warm and fuzzy. I like to cuddle with him. I dont want to mess this one up. So im not gonna say anything or go out with him. He and I are more of the dating type anyhow. It's silly but I really really look forward to seeing him. And I dont mind grabbing his butt lol. I just feel very comfy around him. I like it. I like him. And then there's Eric. Might-as-well say HIS name cuz just about everybody knows I have a silly crush on him. What can I say? Maybe it's a fascination. Maybe it's his beautiful hair...and just self. I'll shut up now before my face gets hot. Then I know i am blushing. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh growl. Humm...snack time. This is a lot of writing. I should stop. Chyea. So all in all, it ended up being a splendid day. I love you. good day. good night. good morning. Jenny at 7:33 PM Comments: Post a Comment
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