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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Good news -- 24-hour flu dissipated by the following morning. I woke up with an appetite and I ate a nectarine, little orange, and pb and chocolate chip sammich.
I am watching Pompeii right now. Though it does benefit my grade if I watch it, I would have watched it nonetheless because it is interesting. Vanilla toothpaste? Ewwy. I dig vanilla but hot damn...that vanilla gone too far. Hmm...I'm tired. Late night last night. Early morning this morning. I could have slept later, but an hour past noon seemed to work at the time. I also wanted a cookie because my ma made cookies saturday. Happy thoughts consume my mind Submitted in bulk to Finesse. I'm kind of sad I can't submit any photography, though. I'm more of a writer than a photographer at the moment, though. It was my grampa's birthday Friday. I didn't really know how to celebrate it. It's still really weird for me. It's the feeling that he is still in my life, but also lacking in it. It's just...complicated. I know he's in my heart but then I am so curious to know where he actually resides. I would be selfish if to keep in within my heart to myself only...he's within all of our hearts. But...is that just how it works? He soul lives within all of us? Or does it go elsewhere...such as heaven or simply reincarnate into another being to live another life. And if there is such a heaven or 'next life', will I see him there or meet him again? Will I recognize him?If all else fails, will I ever see him again? Was it supposed to end like that? It still continues to baffle me how everything seemed to be working against me and my wishes to visit him in the hospital. Why? Why couldn't I see him one last time? Why was it that everyone was there except me? I could understand his wishes that I dont see him at his weakest point, but...everyone else was there except me. It's not fair. And I know I will need to get over it sometime but it will continually break my heart nonetheless. I just don't know why he had to go away. I dont know. But what I do know is that he's in my mind and heart. I find comfort that I wrote him that letter...and he can read it and know that I meant to be there and see him. I didn't forget. I'm left thinking. There are an array of thoughts that fill this entry. Despite all the bad memories and darkness, life lives on. There is always some reason to keep on trucking. Despite the vast array of thoughts I wrote down in the span of about an hour and a half, I walk away ok. It's amazing the things one can go through and simply walk away ok. Time heals all. I'm okay. I am happy. My heart is full. Life lives on To the Internal Happiness Song Jenny at 8:05 PM
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