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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Well. I guess it is a little silly to write posts about people in here...especially when they write one back. But I didn't write it for this person to read it, I wrote it because that's how I get my feelings out. Honestly, I didn't even think this person read my blog anymore. So I agree, it was quite immature on my part, and it took some reciprocation for me to realize that. That wasn't meant to be offensive, I just meant I needed to see it from your angle to realize that it was a bad move on my part. That's that.
In generality, life is really quite funny. I'm at this point where things couldn't quite get much worse. But, nevertheless, I'm trying. I really am trying. Take today, I went shopping with my ma. I hate malls. And I couldn't find ANYTHING I liked. It's not that the things didn't fit-they all fit fine, I just couldn't find anything to save my life. And I'm a teeshirt and jeans type of girl...still, no dice. This left me extremely frusterated. And I discover wonderful music on my own for once...and I can find it NOWHERE. Not even Sam Goody. I tell you, it was a complete letdown. What the hell do we have all these damn malls for if they don't have a variety? All the people, all the commotion...malls are just hell for me. And of all times, I just need something new in my stereo to veg out to and just let go and I can't even have that. I'll stick to ordering teeshirts and music from the internet. I'm at that point in my life where I'm trying to clean up all this debris and make things okay again...and I'm laughing because this is universal. This feeling of trying to fix things and all, there are probably a million other people feeling the exact same way but the only difference is that they are in their situation and I am in mine. I'm at that point of laughter because it's all really so funny. I'm not laughing at anyone, I'm actually just laughing at myself and life at it's simplest state. Here I am, trying my best to figure myself out all in one shot. Here I am, hoping to clean everything up with one sweep of a broom. And I realize how naive I am. No matter how mature I may think I am becoming, I am terribly naive. I am not putting myself down and I am not putting anyone else down- this is simply human. And no matter how much I try to defy this human nature, I always lose. But I keep trying because somehow, I am always full of this everlasting hope...I don't know exactly where it comes from but I guess I should be grateful. I can always hope tomorrow is a better day. So please, let's all just laugh. Life is way too short. And I am sorry for anyone I let down-sincerely. Love to all and no less, Jen Jenny at 5:34 PM
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