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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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I found one whole four-leaf clover, one partial four-leaf clover, and one deteriorating four-leaf clover.
I got up to eight hits on my hackey sack. I can't find that spider that devoured that beetle (it's really freaking me out!) I think I am going to get really good at hackey sack so that I can eventually do that with a soccer ball. I think I am going to train for soccer this summer. That means I have to start running more. Oi. It's worth it. I also want to start playing basketball again. And I want to play an occasional game of beach vollyball. I want to start a tradition with each one of my friends. I want to learn "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls on my acoustic. My sister likes that song so I want to learn it so I can play it for her. I want to fill my whole driveway with chalk drawings. I want to learn how to sing better. I want to learn how to breakdance and tai kwan do. I want to rock climb more often and go biking. I want to go to save a pet and play with the kitties and doggies. I want to bake something. I want to plant a tree. I want to lay in my grass right now but I am afraid that hungry spider is gonna eat me. I hope we play soccer tomorrow. I hope I can go to graduation tomorrow. I hope everyone is as healthy as they can be and for those who aren't, I hope they get better. I really hope she will be okay. I hope the people in Asia are enjoying their sunrise right now. There is nothing I'd rather do now than be outside in some way or another. I should really just live out there. I wish I had a tent so I could sleep outside tonight. I don't really need a tent, but with that hungry spider on the loose...::shivvers:: I was sitting on my porch today and I was soaking in life. I was focusing on how the sun hits the trees and how the wind brings life to what may seem like inatimate objects to most. But I personally think the world is alive. Every tree, every plant- just as much as you and me. I want to sleep outside tonight. I don't want to go to school anymore. I want to sleep outside, and I want to wake up to the sunrise because I want to- not because I have to. I want to take a walk. Imagination is the quickest way to get yourself anywhere. I have the desire to stay up all night and think about everything. I want to sort things out. I want to think things though. My grandma's heart is sick. Her heart valve has a little hole in it. This makes me really upset because I am so scared for her. What also makes me upset is that my family has a habit of keeping problems like this secret. If something is wrong with them, they either won't admit it until it's a bigger problem or simply brush it off as nothing. My grandma's heart has been hurting ever since my grandpa was sick. She thought it was stress. That was three years ago. Now her heart it hurting again and she hasn't told us all this till now. Three years- that little hole could have gotten bigger. Now I can't stop thinking about her and maybe other secret family medical issues. My dad refuses to go to a doctor unless something is wrong with him. But what if he doesn't know something is wrong with him? It's frusterating to know my family consists of stubborn people who have too much pride to ever admit something is wrong with them. And I am so scared because I don't think I can take losing someone I love again. And I know I am probably over-analyzing but I can't help but fear these things. I just can't stop thinking about her and her heart. I asked my dad if they can fix her easily and he said yes with the exception that it's a risky procedure. She needs to get a second opinion from another doctor and he/she will do more tests. Then from those results, she will decide how she what procedure she wants them to do. My mind got all jumbled when my dad was telling me the procedures but he said something about open heart and that means they have to open her heart up and that's scary because it's gotta beat still. That means they will probably have to make it stop beating for a little bit so that blood doesnt get in the way and what if it doesn't start again when they put it back together and turn it on again? I want to be at the hospital with her when she is getting her heart fixed. I have always been left in the dark with these things and I always seem to be the last to know the good/bad news. I wanna be there the whole time. What if she's leaking through the hole? I have B+ blood. I can't think about this anymore-- I am going to get upset. I hope that everyone's heart is intact and that everyone is as healthy as can be. Drink a lot of milk, take your vitamins, and get all the basic food groups. Eat lots of fruits and vegetables and make sure to maintain a healthy metabolism. Drink at least eight glasses of water a day. Do a little cardio everyday with some sort of energetic activity. Get outside when it's nice but find appreciation for the cloudy days, too. Take some chances, push yourself, live life like there is no tomorrow. Laugh your heartiest laugh because life is funny. Smile at the world around you- even at the flowers and the geese and the squirrels and the trees. Embrace like you are just about to leave for a long time and don't let go until you have to. Love with all your heart and never hold back. You make me feel like the most beautiful snowflake to fall from the sky. I love you all so much. Jenny at 8:40 PM
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