Her Smiling Eyes

Monday, May 23, 2005

There are some underlying thoughts present but they are better off elsewhere.

Prom was super fun! I danced my heart out with many of my friends. What made the evening was the variety of people I was in contact with. It's wonderful to have so many people you care about in the same vicinity as you. It was very memorable out on the dance floor and I smiled for the majority of the night. My friends make me happy and I realized how incredibly happy I know each and every one of them. It's just one of those revelations that I find myself having more than once, and each time it's such a beautiful thing. My friends are all very unique and wonderful people. They all have a special place in my heart that they will forever occupy. I fell in love with each one of them again that night. It was a night I will never forget.

There were some beautiful moments that night- one of them being when Blink 182's "Rock Show" came on and Carly and I look at each other because we both knew that we knew the words. So we sang to each other throughout the whole song, and at the end, when Mark sang, "I'll never forget tonight", Carly and I put our arms around each other and belted it out as loud as we could. Chyea...that was definatly one of those moments that while you're 'in it', you are thinking, "Wow, this is a beautiful moment. This is something I reminice about later in life and maybe even tell my kids."

Another was dancing with Brendan. It was beautiful because we said we would share a dance together, and in the middle of all the energy and the rush of it all, he took my hand and we danced like there was no tomorrow. And it meant so much because he is one of my best friends and it means so much to me when we are both happy and having a great time. It meant so much to me to see him so happy like that. I love him so much. He means so much to me. And to dance with someone who means so much to you like that is all the more meaningful.

Then there was dancing with Beeks. I was so happy that she went to prom and everytime I would see her, I would get even more happy. She is also one of my best friends and she also means a whole lot to me. Seeing her have a great time dancing and being the silly girl that she is was so nice. I was so exuberantly happy.

And then there is my last, and probably lasting memory of my junior prom. I was dancing with Abby during a slow song and we would always sing the words aloud if we knew them. I was capturing everything that was going on in the last few minutes of prom in it's fullest. I saw that a lot of people were getting really emotional, and some of my friends were crying. I realized that this is the seniors last prom and this is pretty much the last hurrah for them. And suddenly, everything slowed down- the dancing, the music, Abby's voice...everything gradually went to slow-motion and then seemed to pause, if only for a few moments. I thought in my head, "This is it. This is really it." By the time everything went back to normal speed, the song was over and the dance hall seemed silent because I think everyone realized that. I think that at the exact same time, everyone realized that this was it and took a moment to soak it all in. I swear, to me, it was so silent after the music went off that all I could hear was the shuffle of feet, the humming off the music-less stereo, and the ringing within my ears. It was sort of sad to completely consider a beautiful moment, but it was beautiful in the sense that it was shared by just about everyone in the room. I'll never forget those few noises that made the silence so apparent.

I will miss all of my friends who are seniors. I will miss all that are leaving ACHS in general. I will be missing a lot. But I hope all of you know that you all have a permanent place in my heart. Each and every one of you has made and everlasting impression on me and I will never forget any of you. I love you all so, so much. The amount could never be calculated because there is no definate amount. It just keeps growing and growing, it's infathomable. Just realize that I love you all more and more every single day. I'm not going anywhere, so remember I am always here for each of you. No words could efficiently express how much you all mean to me but if I could explode with appreciation, I would and multiple times would I. I wish you all the best of luck in college and in your future. I am so proud of all of you. Remember to keep in touch, and if worse comes to worse, I hope we run into each other somewhere later in life. May it be the bread aisle, a check-out line, a bank, an airport, or Disneyland, I hope to run into each of you and catch up. You know when people mean a lot to you when 'love' seems like an understatement. Nevertheless, I love all of you so, so much and I hope none of you ever forget that. If there was an everlasting impression I could leave on all of you, it would be how much I love and care about all of you. I hope you all are able to look back on our friendship and smile. I anticipate the future memories so that maybe we can just remain smiling. Life is all the more beautiful with you in it. Thank you for being in my life.

Jenny at 5:54 PM

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Monday, May 23, 2005 There are some underlying thoughts present but they are better off elsewhere. Prom was super fun! I danced my heart out with many of my friends. What made the evening was the variety of people I was in contact with. It's wonderful to have so many people you care about in the same vicinity as you. It was very memorable out on the dance floor and I smiled for the majority of the night. My friends make me happy and I realized how incredibly happy I know each and every one of them. It's just one of those revelations that I find myself having more than once, and each time it's such a beautiful thing. My friends are all very unique and wonderful people. They all have a special place in my heart that they will forever occupy. I fell in love with each one of them again that night. It was a night I will never forget. There were some beautiful moments that night- one of them being when Blink 182's "Rock Show" came on and Carly and I look at each other because we both knew that we knew the words. So we sang to each other throughout the whole song, and at the end, when Mark sang, "I'll never forget tonight", Carly and I put our arms around each other and belted it out as loud as we could. Chyea...that was definatly one of those moments that while you're 'in it', you are thinking, "Wow, this is a beautiful moment. This is something I reminice about later in life and maybe even tell my kids." Another was dancing with Brendan. It was beautiful because we said we would share a dance together, and in the middle of all the energy and the rush of it all, he took my hand and we danced like there was no tomorrow. And it meant so much because he is one of my best friends and it means so much to me when we are both happy and having a great time. It meant so much to me to see him so happy like that. I love him so much. He means so much to me. And to dance with someone who means so much to you like that is all the more meaningful. Then there was dancing with Beeks. I was so happy that she went to prom and everytime I would see her, I would get even more happy. She is also one of my best friends and she also means a whole lot to me. Seeing her have a great time dancing and being the silly girl that she is was so nice. I was so exuberantly happy. And then there is my last, and probably lasting memory of my junior prom. I was dancing with Abby during a slow song and we would always sing the words aloud if we knew them. I was capturing everything that was going on in the last few minutes of prom in it's fullest. I saw that a lot of people were getting really emotional, and some of my friends were crying. I realized that this is the seniors last prom and this is pretty much the last hurrah for them. And suddenly, everything slowed down- the dancing, the music, Abby's voice...everything gradually went to slow-motion and then seemed to pause, if only for a few moments. I thought in my head, "This is it. This is really it." By the time everything went back to normal speed, the song was over and the dance hall seemed silent because I think everyone realized that. I think that at the exact same time, everyone realized that this was it and took a moment to soak it all in. I swear, to me, it was so silent after the music went off that all I could hear was the shuffle of feet, the humming off the music-less stereo, and the ringing within my ears. It was sort of sad to completely consider a beautiful moment, but it was beautiful in the sense that it was shared by just about everyone in the room. I'll never forget those few noises that made the silence so apparent. I will miss all of my friends who are seniors. I will miss all that are leaving ACHS in general. I will be missing a lot. But I hope all of you know that you all have a permanent place in my heart. Each and every one of you has made and everlasting impression on me and I will never forget any of you. I love you all so, so much. The amount could never be calculated because there is no definate amount. It just keeps growing and growing, it's infathomable. Just realize that I love you all more and more every single day. I'm not going anywhere, so remember I am always here for each of you. No words could efficiently express how much you all mean to me but if I could explode with appreciation, I would and multiple times would I. I wish you all the best of luck in college and in your future. I am so proud of all of you. Remember to keep in touch, and if worse comes to worse, I hope we run into each other somewhere later in life. May it be the bread aisle, a check-out line, a bank, an airport, or Disneyland, I hope to run into each of you and catch up. You know when people mean a lot to you when 'love' seems like an understatement. Nevertheless, I love all of you so, so much and I hope none of you ever forget that. If there was an everlasting impression I could leave on all of you, it would be how much I love and care about all of you. I hope you all are able to look back on our friendship and smile. I anticipate the future memories so that maybe we can just remain smiling. Life is all the more beautiful with you in it. Thank you for being in my life. Jenny at 5:54 PM Comments: Post a Comment
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