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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Okay, so currently it is about 12:15am.
Honestly, I don't know what exactly I am feeling. I'm horney (thanks to someone...) I'm happy (hooray dresses) But then I'm intimidated and jealous Being a girl is a love/hate sort of thing. I don't even know what it is exactly that I want yet the thought of someone else having it/being closer to having it that me... I feel extremely threatened. Especially in a friendship I have with someone. I am usually laid-back and whatev... I don't know. It's just really bothering me. I hate this aspect of being a girl. The jealousy is like an itch that I just want to go away And I pretend not to notice or care Yet it still remains and it bothers me I hate that it bothers me. With that, I feel threatened. Like I missed out on something that could have helped my cause. I feel like I'm lagging in the growing bond of friendship. I'm so frusterated with these feelings because they seem inevitable with relationships of all kinds. I feel as if I didnt have a chance to sort out my feelings... and that I was too late on the draw. I should be happy for the other person... but instead I am a girl. Selfish is what first comes to mind. Except I refuse to work that way. I will just let it be and find myself out. Boys have always frusterated me anyway =P At least I know I do like someone else. I haven't had to question that. Life goes on, no matter how things turn out. At least I am sure about something. But for now, oi. Jenny at 12:10 AM
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