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Monday, August 29, 2005

This or that.

Today I was brave. I defied my shyness and just gave the poem to the designated person. And I didn't make it awkward or anything. It felt really good because now I don't feel like I'm keeping a secret anymore. That is quite a nice feeling, let me tell you. I have no idea of the turn out but right now I feel pretty damn okay.

One down, one more to go. Next up, sky diving or something else I am terrified to do. Good stuff, I'm on a roll haha.

Ze allergies are still bothering the hell out of me. God dammit, the inside of my mouth itches. WTF? I rub and itch my nose like I'm a fucking coke addict and my eyes just seal the deal. I'm all bloodshot and deranged looking. I'm exaggerating like a mad woman but goodness, what is up with this? I'm so itchy and I can't scratchy because I'm itchy in the weirdest places. My mouth? My ears? Ughh.

The good news is (and surprisingly enough, I am full of a lot of good news today, despite that mini rant lol) that school seems to be getting better and better. World Lit is a blast. Campbell is fun because she acts as though she is super goody two shoes, bleeping out questionable words while reading to us and so on. And then with me in another one of her english classes- it's interesting, heh heh heh.

I sort of wish I had Mrs. Andershock for something, though. I got to hang out with her at the school dance and we made friends. We could be tight lol.

Mrs. Howell likes me this year. I think it's because I'm missing my partner in crime. Damn Connecticut, it's no fun to make ruckus without him :( I'm glad she likes me, though. I'm glad she doesn't hold grudges. We were quite a handfull, but I've mellowed out. I'm pretty good now.

Shehorn. He's still Shehorn. I'm a little bit more tolerant of him after the past three years. A little bit. Blast the man to pieces for putting two Jenny's in the same damn class, right by each other. Good lord, news is a bitch every single Monday ::shakes fists::

Today, during my second class with Laura mind you, I noticed how she misused the word 'gay' quite frequently. I finally couldn't stand it anymore when she called a kid on the other side of the room 'gay' because he teased her about something. I looked at her and with slight sarcasm, I said, "Yes, yes I am. In fact, I'm extremely gay. It's almost overwhelming." The shame was, she was oblivious to all that I said and was talking amongst herself about something or other...but the truly funny part was- Liz heard me and we shared a good laugh.

Some girls suck at life and need to learn how to try. Softball isn't that hard. In fact, it isn't really hard- at all. If you at least TRY to hit the damn OVERSIZED ball, maybe you will get somewhere. But by all means, stop fucking whining- we don't even exert ourselves.

Luckily, Coleman has a free period 7th hour as well and she works out in the cardio room with Walton. She said I was more than welcome to join them. I started today because I am really eager to start working out again. PE Teams is quite the disappointment when it comes to feeling the burn. I feel nothing. But I get to play sports. Somehow, it doesn't seem worth it, but at least I can have the best of both worlds now. Today, Coleman and I walked on the treadmill at eight incline and 3mph. I burned around 84ish calories after 20 minutes of that. It's a start, and I look forward to it now every day. I look forward to getting more adjusted each time and making the workout more challenging. Plus, we had the nicest conversation about fitness, my goals for my senior year, college, healthy eating habits, and so on. Coleman and I are catchin' up. I really value her encouragement and together we will be each other's moral support and burn some cal's daily. It's a great bonding experience, too. Good stuff :)

I'm trying to get Tina to join us but she has PE the hour afterwards. Poop. I dunno, I think it's fun lol. But then again, that's just me.

Katie and I had some good times after school haha. We saw Danni coming down the band hallway so we ran in the band room and hid in the uniform rack. This other girl notice us but when Danni came by and I slowly crawled out of the coats, she screamed so loud it was hysterical. Everyone pretty much dropped their instruments and looked at us. I was throughly amused, as well as Katie. Danni, not so much since she nearly had a heart attack but eventually she thought it was funny haha.

Our little afterschool club trio is priceless. I can see us going places.
And my Julia, boy do I miss her. We are going to catch up soon. "Fuck yea, dude!" Haha :)
Aww and ze Brittany Beeks, I shall visit her often as well.
Pretty much the entire 7th hour gym class is a mini reunion for me. And I get to greet them everyday before I work out :D Huzzah

I like to draw little PacMan in front of my freckles because it looks like they are going to eat them. Muahaha (I pretty much tattooed my whole leg during government today)

My jaw hurts from chewing my gum for so long. Zeman has my cousin, Matt, so I told him to give Matty a hard time because he doesn't talk to me lol. I suppose I overwhelm him. ::Thinks back:: Chyea, I can see why he doesn't talk to me. I mean, freshman year we were in the same bio class and I gave him a crayfish puppet show. It consisted of me just dancing the crayfish around and dubbing in weird phrases. We don't really have a lot in common...he doesn't really talk either...but still, talk to meeeeee. I'm nice.

Tomorrow should be a fine day. I hope my friend doesn't think I'm on crack or anything. Let's just say I have the tendencies of a second grader- I bully because I like. What can I say?

I miss my Bren Bren, though. I am very happy he is throughly enjoying himself in Chicago, but it doesn't make me miss him any less. Humm, I plan on visiting him very soon. Heart. I look forward to this. I can't wait to give him a big hug :)

I am going to try to go downtown Wednesday with the clan. They are going to see Tori and The Ditty Bops in concert at Millenium Park, I do believe. I'm thinkin' since I don't have a ticket for that, I will just go down with them on the train and go see Bren instead, then meet up with them when it's over. I think it sounds like a wonderful plan.

I have to get some shut-eye, I couldn't sleep last night and it threw me off today. Wish me luck with this newfound bravery. Maybe I'll make something of it.

Goodnight and love to all + more each and every day

Jenny at 8:57 PM

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Monday, August 29, 2005 This or that. Today I was brave. I defied my shyness and just gave the poem to the designated person. And I didn't make it awkward or anything. It felt really good because now I don't feel like I'm keeping a secret anymore. That is quite a nice feeling, let me tell you. I have no idea of the turn out but right now I feel pretty damn okay. One down, one more to go. Next up, sky diving or something else I am terrified to do. Good stuff, I'm on a roll haha. Ze allergies are still bothering the hell out of me. God dammit, the inside of my mouth itches. WTF? I rub and itch my nose like I'm a fucking coke addict and my eyes just seal the deal. I'm all bloodshot and deranged looking. I'm exaggerating like a mad woman but goodness, what is up with this? I'm so itchy and I can't scratchy because I'm itchy in the weirdest places. My mouth? My ears? Ughh. The good news is (and surprisingly enough, I am full of a lot of good news today, despite that mini rant lol) that school seems to be getting better and better. World Lit is a blast. Campbell is fun because she acts as though she is super goody two shoes, bleeping out questionable words while reading to us and so on. And then with me in another one of her english classes- it's interesting, heh heh heh. I sort of wish I had Mrs. Andershock for something, though. I got to hang out with her at the school dance and we made friends. We could be tight lol. Mrs. Howell likes me this year. I think it's because I'm missing my partner in crime. Damn Connecticut, it's no fun to make ruckus without him :( I'm glad she likes me, though. I'm glad she doesn't hold grudges. We were quite a handfull, but I've mellowed out. I'm pretty good now. Shehorn. He's still Shehorn. I'm a little bit more tolerant of him after the past three years. A little bit. Blast the man to pieces for putting two Jenny's in the same damn class, right by each other. Good lord, news is a bitch every single Monday ::shakes fists:: Today, during my second class with Laura mind you, I noticed how she misused the word 'gay' quite frequently. I finally couldn't stand it anymore when she called a kid on the other side of the room 'gay' because he teased her about something. I looked at her and with slight sarcasm, I said, "Yes, yes I am. In fact, I'm extremely gay. It's almost overwhelming." The shame was, she was oblivious to all that I said and was talking amongst herself about something or other...but the truly funny part was- Liz heard me and we shared a good laugh. Some girls suck at life and need to learn how to try. Softball isn't that hard. In fact, it isn't really hard- at all. If you at least TRY to hit the damn OVERSIZED ball, maybe you will get somewhere. But by all means, stop fucking whining- we don't even exert ourselves. Luckily, Coleman has a free period 7th hour as well and she works out in the cardio room with Walton. She said I was more than welcome to join them. I started today because I am really eager to start working out again. PE Teams is quite the disappointment when it comes to feeling the burn. I feel nothing. But I get to play sports. Somehow, it doesn't seem worth it, but at least I can have the best of both worlds now. Today, Coleman and I walked on the treadmill at eight incline and 3mph. I burned around 84ish calories after 20 minutes of that. It's a start, and I look forward to it now every day. I look forward to getting more adjusted each time and making the workout more challenging. Plus, we had the nicest conversation about fitness, my goals for my senior year, college, healthy eating habits, and so on. Coleman and I are catchin' up. I really value her encouragement and together we will be each other's moral support and burn some cal's daily. It's a great bonding experience, too. Good stuff :) I'm trying to get Tina to join us but she has PE the hour afterwards. Poop. I dunno, I think it's fun lol. But then again, that's just me. Katie and I had some good times after school haha. We saw Danni coming down the band hallway so we ran in the band room and hid in the uniform rack. This other girl notice us but when Danni came by and I slowly crawled out of the coats, she screamed so loud it was hysterical. Everyone pretty much dropped their instruments and looked at us. I was throughly amused, as well as Katie. Danni, not so much since she nearly had a heart attack but eventually she thought it was funny haha. Our little afterschool club trio is priceless. I can see us going places. And my Julia, boy do I miss her. We are going to catch up soon. "Fuck yea, dude!" Haha :) Aww and ze Brittany Beeks, I shall visit her often as well. Pretty much the entire 7th hour gym class is a mini reunion for me. And I get to greet them everyday before I work out :D Huzzah I like to draw little PacMan in front of my freckles because it looks like they are going to eat them. Muahaha (I pretty much tattooed my whole leg during government today) My jaw hurts from chewing my gum for so long. Zeman has my cousin, Matt, so I told him to give Matty a hard time because he doesn't talk to me lol. I suppose I overwhelm him. ::Thinks back:: Chyea, I can see why he doesn't talk to me. I mean, freshman year we were in the same bio class and I gave him a crayfish puppet show. It consisted of me just dancing the crayfish around and dubbing in weird phrases. We don't really have a lot in common...he doesn't really talk either...but still, talk to meeeeee. I'm nice. Tomorrow should be a fine day. I hope my friend doesn't think I'm on crack or anything. Let's just say I have the tendencies of a second grader- I bully because I like. What can I say? I miss my Bren Bren, though. I am very happy he is throughly enjoying himself in Chicago, but it doesn't make me miss him any less. Humm, I plan on visiting him very soon. Heart. I look forward to this. I can't wait to give him a big hug :) I am going to try to go downtown Wednesday with the clan. They are going to see Tori and The Ditty Bops in concert at Millenium Park, I do believe. I'm thinkin' since I don't have a ticket for that, I will just go down with them on the train and go see Bren instead, then meet up with them when it's over. I think it sounds like a wonderful plan. I have to get some shut-eye, I couldn't sleep last night and it threw me off today. Wish me luck with this newfound bravery. Maybe I'll make something of it. Goodnight and love to all + more each and every day Jenny at 8:57 PM Comments: Post a Comment
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