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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Testing...testing...1,2,3.
I hope all is well. I pray, and I pray. Today was a lovely day. I had a mini reunion. It's sort of weird when you've known the person since what, middle school? But over time, you drift and people change. So it's like you're meeting them all over again. I am usually shy in these occasions...with the mindset that I'm meeting this person over again and not wanting to sound stupid. Oh totally failed, yo. I only got two hours of sleep today and here I was rambling and so on. It really is funny how I tend to worry about how I present (or re-present) myself to people. I tell myself, "Don't act foolish, don't act foolish" and in the process, I am completely acting foolish. It's inevitable. No, but it was okay because I was being myself. It's not like all this matters because in the end, all turned out well. I caught up with an old friend and we're rejuvinated friends now. It was fun hanging out with her today and escaping from yearbook (bleh). She is such a nice girl- I have no idea why I was so shy in talking to her in the first place. I hope we become better friends again. Have you ever been in a situation where the best and worst are unknown? And the best and worst having a big part of your life, whichever it may be. It is unknown whether things will turn out for the best or the worst...but it is terribly hard to live life not knowing. I don't know whether I should allow myself to be happy with this negative floating around me. Everytime I'm in a good mood or having a good time, I think about what could be and I feel bad for feeling good feelings at a time like this. How selfish am I to feel fine for the time I am when things aren't fine? I know I shouldn't punish myself for these good feelings but I can't help it. These thoughts haunt me and I worry about her. No mas because it's not happening. NO. Back to normal thought process...I'm catching up with a lot of friends. I've totally missed Katie Reardon. Oh my goodness, it's been too long. We're reuniting soon. I'm just thinking about all these friends I havent had the opprotunity to spend time with for a while and making it happen. You only live so long, and you only have these people in your presence until they go. You never know when that may be so it's important to keep in touch. I'm doing my best to, I really am. Blip blob bloop. Jenny is sleep. Jenny needs sleep. Sleep goes Jenny. Jenny goes to sleep. I love you all immensely. Remember that. Goodnight. Jenny at 9:41 PM
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