Her Smiling Eyes

Thursday, November 17, 2005

So fellas, it has been a long time, no?
I've noticed that I tend to start many of these posts with 'so', or at least have the biggest temptation to.
But then I realize, it is as if I am continuing from a previous conversation or post, etc.
I have a tendancy to do that, as well.
I'll be talking about something with someone, let's say...about a sweater. Then we will move from subject to subject as most conversations do and suddenly, I'll say "You know what would be nice? If someone invented non-itchy wool. Then that whole group of sweaters would not be neglected/despised," or something pertaining to sweaters...as if we were still on that topic.
It's not that I'm constantly thinking about sweaters or anything, it's just that suddenly the idea will pop into my mind and it will relate what we were talking about before. I guess I have kind of a delayed mental reaction.

Again, I wanted to begin the new paragraph with 'so'. God damn, I say. That is how I will start this paragraph.
God damn. It really has been a while. Maybe not years or anything, but I am usually pretty dedicated to my blog. Not so much these days. Actually, I lack the time. To sleep, even. I mean, I went to the dentist yesterday and the dentist lady noticed my bottom tooth was beginning to shift. She told me I should where my retainer to bed and I said it would help if I actually went to bed more so then the retainer thing would be beneficial. But bed is not an option lately.

You see, the reason I have been so terrible at updating and everything is because of multiple things. Three to be exact. School, college prep, play rehearsal. It's not a hard life and I don't necessarily hate it (anymore at least, now that I am getting along with the rents more ::sigh of relief::) it's just very time consuming. But I like to be busy. I may not have as much free time, but no I don't have any time where I'm excessively bored (like that ever happened, but it could sooner or later). Nowadays, when I hang out with friends, we do homework together. Honestly, I'm not even kidding.

I really enjoy being in the play. Now at least, for the process was incredibly annoying and I would become frusterated fairly quickly. It always seemed that everytime I had something to do after rehearsal, we'd go EXTRA long. For example, Tuesday Tim and I were getting Chinese after rehearsal/getting his hair cut. Somehow, rehearsal dragged on until damn near 9:30pm. WTF, I wanted my damn chinese food. I was about ready to bust a cap into the next motha fucka who delayed us. Seriously, I was so mad. I had shit to do. And chinese food CANNOT wait.

I am proud to say that this will be the first cast party that I am officially part of. Woot :)

I like Hawaiian bread. And is my voicemail really that bothersome? My goodness. I'll change the damn thing when I get to it.

My hands are soooooo cold. You know it's fridged out when you get out of the car and the brisk air makes you choke. Wow, it's cold. Please snow, give the world reason to be cold besides harsh wind conditions and dreary skies.

Earlier, I was really glum. And by earlier, I mean about a half hour ago. Sometimes, when I think of somethings, I get really sad and upset. Things change, and some tend to change for the worse. And I thought about that and my chest got all tight and I was really upset. But then suddenly I got all better and I turned into a good mood. I don't know if I am just stifling the sad or if I really am in a good mood. I still have the sad, but then again, I am in a pretty good mood right now. I don't get it.

I am so excited for this weekend :) Brendan comes home tomorrow and he is coming to see the play! Hooray! I see a robin, but it's not the first sign of spring. Oh, if only...

I went to a concert last friday at the venentian...oh the memories and everything good in life. Everytime I walk up to the enterance, all these feelings arise. I walk up the ramp and inside the door to see all these people ranging in all ages. I see the rainbow shadows on the ceiling as well as familiar/foreign faces all around me and it's okay. To many people as well as myself, the venetian is home. This is our home turf that bands from all over and locally grace us with music, entertainment, joy. And it doesn't matter who you know there because everyone has one thing in common and that is to enjoy the music. What a great time to meet new people, make new friends, and enjoy spending time with those you love.
That concert was just what I needed that night. Not only that night, but for a long time.
My favorite bands were This is Cinema, The Meteah Strike, and The Human Race.
Not only was This is Cinema phenomenal, but their lead vocalist was absolutely gorgeous. Oh my.
So amazing.

I only wish that I could have shared that night with people who would have appreciated it more. I have a handful of people that I wish were there with me, for it was a night that would have definately been remembered.
Oh well, I had Chani, Ashton, and Sam. Jeremy was also there and I got his number ::blushes:: Oooh yea :)

I'm okay. I promise. So far, I have kept my pact and plan to forever more. Scratch that, I will.

Oh, and I had the craziest dream this morning. I remember it vaguely, though. I was in Chicago, but instead of visiting those I normally visit, I was visiting Katie, my hair dresser. Even in my dream, I think this is very odd because she lives very close to my house. But I am visiting HER dorm in Chicago and she's giving me a tour of everything. The weird thing is, there are more trees in the city than I ever rememeber before and they were still turing. So it was like the middle of autumn. We end up back in her dorm after a extremely rushed tour and she is looking for something and I'm extremely uncomfortable/restless. I end up pacing around the dorm and the hallway while looking at everything on the walls (posters, advertisements, paintings, etc). I end up in either her dorm or another dorm and their is a red sheet covering a bottom bunk. I pull aside the red sheet and I see a really wasted version of Ms. O'Connor. I am incredibly shocked in seeing this and I don't even recognize her at first. I say, "I think I know you but I don't know where?" in a really confused tone because I assume it's one of Katie's friends or something. Then she tells me who she is and how she used to teach PE back at ACHS. I asked her if she was going to school here and she said yea, this is where she ended up...completely wasted in some college. I was still really shocked and Katie found me and wisked me away. We hurried to another destination and I remember I couldn't get over how beautiful the leaves were and how the sun would shine through them. But I was so worried and had such a weird feeling like I shouldn't have been visiting her in Chicago considering she lives by me and isn't in college. I kept thinking I should have been visiting Brendan instead.
Anywho, I woke up really weirded out.

This is getting quite long, so I will stop now. I think this makes up for a good three posts, right? Right.
Also, if you can, please go to the plays this week. This will be my very first play at ACHS and it'd mean a lot to me if my friends/family came to see it. It is a very intriguing play and I am sure the lot of you will enjoy it, for it is nothing like you have ever seen before. I look forward to see those of you who are coming this weeked :D Let me rephrase that, I am PUMPED! Hooray!! Pre-Thanksgiving reunion! Heart, heart, heart :)

Jenny at 3:45 PM

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Thursday, November 17, 2005 So fellas, it has been a long time, no? I've noticed that I tend to start many of these posts with 'so', or at least have the biggest temptation to. But then I realize, it is as if I am continuing from a previous conversation or post, etc. I have a tendancy to do that, as well. I'll be talking about something with someone, let's say...about a sweater. Then we will move from subject to subject as most conversations do and suddenly, I'll say "You know what would be nice? If someone invented non-itchy wool. Then that whole group of sweaters would not be neglected/despised," or something pertaining to sweaters...as if we were still on that topic. It's not that I'm constantly thinking about sweaters or anything, it's just that suddenly the idea will pop into my mind and it will relate what we were talking about before. I guess I have kind of a delayed mental reaction. Again, I wanted to begin the new paragraph with 'so'. God damn, I say. That is how I will start this paragraph. God damn. It really has been a while. Maybe not years or anything, but I am usually pretty dedicated to my blog. Not so much these days. Actually, I lack the time. To sleep, even. I mean, I went to the dentist yesterday and the dentist lady noticed my bottom tooth was beginning to shift. She told me I should where my retainer to bed and I said it would help if I actually went to bed more so then the retainer thing would be beneficial. But bed is not an option lately. You see, the reason I have been so terrible at updating and everything is because of multiple things. Three to be exact. School, college prep, play rehearsal. It's not a hard life and I don't necessarily hate it (anymore at least, now that I am getting along with the rents more ::sigh of relief::) it's just very time consuming. But I like to be busy. I may not have as much free time, but no I don't have any time where I'm excessively bored (like that ever happened, but it could sooner or later). Nowadays, when I hang out with friends, we do homework together. Honestly, I'm not even kidding. I really enjoy being in the play. Now at least, for the process was incredibly annoying and I would become frusterated fairly quickly. It always seemed that everytime I had something to do after rehearsal, we'd go EXTRA long. For example, Tuesday Tim and I were getting Chinese after rehearsal/getting his hair cut. Somehow, rehearsal dragged on until damn near 9:30pm. WTF, I wanted my damn chinese food. I was about ready to bust a cap into the next motha fucka who delayed us. Seriously, I was so mad. I had shit to do. And chinese food CANNOT wait. I am proud to say that this will be the first cast party that I am officially part of. Woot :) I like Hawaiian bread. And is my voicemail really that bothersome? My goodness. I'll change the damn thing when I get to it. My hands are soooooo cold. You know it's fridged out when you get out of the car and the brisk air makes you choke. Wow, it's cold. Please snow, give the world reason to be cold besides harsh wind conditions and dreary skies. Earlier, I was really glum. And by earlier, I mean about a half hour ago. Sometimes, when I think of somethings, I get really sad and upset. Things change, and some tend to change for the worse. And I thought about that and my chest got all tight and I was really upset. But then suddenly I got all better and I turned into a good mood. I don't know if I am just stifling the sad or if I really am in a good mood. I still have the sad, but then again, I am in a pretty good mood right now. I don't get it. I am so excited for this weekend :) Brendan comes home tomorrow and he is coming to see the play! Hooray! I see a robin, but it's not the first sign of spring. Oh, if only... I went to a concert last friday at the venentian...oh the memories and everything good in life. Everytime I walk up to the enterance, all these feelings arise. I walk up the ramp and inside the door to see all these people ranging in all ages. I see the rainbow shadows on the ceiling as well as familiar/foreign faces all around me and it's okay. To many people as well as myself, the venetian is home. This is our home turf that bands from all over and locally grace us with music, entertainment, joy. And it doesn't matter who you know there because everyone has one thing in common and that is to enjoy the music. What a great time to meet new people, make new friends, and enjoy spending time with those you love. That concert was just what I needed that night. Not only that night, but for a long time. My favorite bands were This is Cinema, The Meteah Strike, and The Human Race. Not only was This is Cinema phenomenal, but their lead vocalist was absolutely gorgeous. Oh my. So amazing. I only wish that I could have shared that night with people who would have appreciated it more. I have a handful of people that I wish were there with me, for it was a night that would have definately been remembered. Oh well, I had Chani, Ashton, and Sam. Jeremy was also there and I got his number ::blushes:: Oooh yea :) I'm okay. I promise. So far, I have kept my pact and plan to forever more. Scratch that, I will. Oh, and I had the craziest dream this morning. I remember it vaguely, though. I was in Chicago, but instead of visiting those I normally visit, I was visiting Katie, my hair dresser. Even in my dream, I think this is very odd because she lives very close to my house. But I am visiting HER dorm in Chicago and she's giving me a tour of everything. The weird thing is, there are more trees in the city than I ever rememeber before and they were still turing. So it was like the middle of autumn. We end up back in her dorm after a extremely rushed tour and she is looking for something and I'm extremely uncomfortable/restless. I end up pacing around the dorm and the hallway while looking at everything on the walls (posters, advertisements, paintings, etc). I end up in either her dorm or another dorm and their is a red sheet covering a bottom bunk. I pull aside the red sheet and I see a really wasted version of Ms. O'Connor. I am incredibly shocked in seeing this and I don't even recognize her at first. I say, "I think I know you but I don't know where?" in a really confused tone because I assume it's one of Katie's friends or something. Then she tells me who she is and how she used to teach PE back at ACHS. I asked her if she was going to school here and she said yea, this is where she ended up...completely wasted in some college. I was still really shocked and Katie found me and wisked me away. We hurried to another destination and I remember I couldn't get over how beautiful the leaves were and how the sun would shine through them. But I was so worried and had such a weird feeling like I shouldn't have been visiting her in Chicago considering she lives by me and isn't in college. I kept thinking I should have been visiting Brendan instead. Anywho, I woke up really weirded out. This is getting quite long, so I will stop now. I think this makes up for a good three posts, right? Right. Also, if you can, please go to the plays this week. This will be my very first play at ACHS and it'd mean a lot to me if my friends/family came to see it. It is a very intriguing play and I am sure the lot of you will enjoy it, for it is nothing like you have ever seen before. I look forward to see those of you who are coming this weeked :D Let me rephrase that, I am PUMPED! Hooray!! Pre-Thanksgiving reunion! Heart, heart, heart :) Jenny at 3:45 PM Comments: Post a Comment
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