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Alotta my pals say that I am pretty random, and i like to think out side of the box alot. Im pretty crazy but not in the straight jacket sorta way ya kno. I like to send letters to my friends cuz everyone likes to get real mail every once and a while. I also like to leave messages on answering machines. Those are a few joys in my life. Another joy in my life is my friends. They put happy into my life just being there. They are my favorite people and I would do anything for them. There are many other joys in my life such as my dog and writing. There are sum downs too but the good stuff makes up for it. Ya can't let the bad bring ya down too much bcuz then life gets a little harder everyday cuz its just bringin ya down. Movin on, Im kinda spastic and goofy and thats aways fun. I like to have fun and smile and have a good time. I'm never usually serious but sometimes I am when I write. Other than that, I usually am never serious cuz its just not me. It would just be weird. But hey I'm weird too and sponaneous so ya never know what to expect outta me I am just a firecracker that just never stops goin. Ya think the pop stops but no it keeps on goin. I can also be refered to as spark plug cuz i dunno i guess im sparky but okay. Thats about all the main stuff, you'll learn the rest in time.
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Once I escape, I'm fine.
So I keep escaping. It's early morning. I want to read, draw, bike. I always like to sink into activities. Focus all of my energy on that one thing... see what I can create. It's been a rough week. Emotionally draining. I was writing thank you cards to my family and I got to my grandma. As I was writing it, I knew somewhere in there I wanted to incorporate my grandpa. I just didn't know how. It's so hard to bring up people that have passed away, especially if they are close to you. At least it was for me in regards to bringing up my grandpa. And it's not just one of those things that you purposely look over in order to avoid the pain. He was a great man. It would have made me so happy if he was able to see me graduate; I would have felt so proud knowing he was out there with the rest of my family watching that, in physical form. That is not to say that he wasn't in my heart as I crossed the stage, because I definately felt him in my heart right then. I know he is proud of me, and he wouldn't have missed this event for the world. I just wish he was still alive so I could really see him after the ceremony and feel his embrace, hear how proud he is and all the advice he has for me as I make my way to college. I just wanted to see his face in the audience. And as I was trying to incorporate him into the card, I realized just how much I miss him. His presence alone in my life meant the world to me. I mean look at me, I would have been content seeing him in the audience. Or his embrace. Little things that you may think anyone could give you but with some people, it means so much more. I really looked up to him and I still do. He will forever be in my heart and in my mind. Anyway, I got really upset as I began writing about him. I still miss him and always will. Other unfortunate things occured as well. My great auntie Pita passed away. Death is a natural thing. Everyone deals with it soon enough in their life. Eventually, everyone will die. So I take a moment to mourn, and then I continue to live my life to the fullest. Take chances, learn as much as you can, don't be afraid to love. Don't be afraid to move on, either. Live, love, learn. We may expire, but our souls are forever infinite. Jenny at 3:36 AM
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